Pretend (A Poem)

You made me feel bad
For something I
Didn't do.
You act like the victim
But are you really?

You are a manipulator
You can't control yourself
You lied,
Made me believe
You were something special
But you aren't.
I had faith in you,
Faith that you could
Be better than the
Look you put on.
I was wrong.

In a way I'm happy
That we no longer talk.
Happy that you
Go caught.
Happy that you
Have to explain yourself.
Happy that I don't
Have to pretend
Because this is
The end.

©Amanda Catherine

Time (A Poem)

Tick, tick, tick,
Time keeps going.
Pacing back and forth
Nervous racing.
Nothing would make him
More happy than
For time to stop.

This moment is more
Than he can take.
Reality hit him hard
And consequences
Are soon to come.
No one expected
This to happen.

All of the sudden
His life turned dark.
He lost all
he had ever
Known to some
Stupid mistake.
He can't take
It back now.
His only love
Was gone.

©Amanda Catherine

29 Things About Me For My 29th Birthday.

1. My favorite movie is Zoolander.
2. I love Mexican food
3. I can play the guitar.
4. I've been writing since I was 13.
5. I'm a colorado native.
6. My favorite animal is a flamingo.
7. I live off coffee.
8. I love to cosplay.
9. I've been suspended from high school.
10. One of my poems has been published.
11. I barely graduated high school.
12. I'm afraid of heights.
13. I danced on a team for 14 years.
14. The only thing I can draw is a flower.
15. I am an only child.
16. My most traveled place is Las Vegas.
17. I hate summer with a passion.
18. I love snow!
19. I've never been skiing.
20. My eyes are seafoam green.
21. I've been drunk.
22. I can't parallel park to save my life.
23. I am a certified phlebotomist.
24. I had braces for 5 years.
25. I am an insomniac.
26. I am very intoverted.
27. I pick at my cuticles when I'm nervous.
28. I want to travel to Maine.
29. I'm afraid of getting old(r).

Rewind (A Poem)

I lay awake,
Thinking of what
To write.
You cross my mind,
Last night
I dreamt of you.
You kissed my forehead
Made me feel
Like everything
Was ok...
Is ok.

Life wasn't terrifying
It was a beautiful
Piece of mystery.
No reason to runaway,
Every reason to hit rewind.

©Amanda Catherine

If He Is Reading ( A Poem)

I he is reading,
I want things to
Go back to the
Way they were.

If he is reading,
You messed up,
But I know I
messed up to.

If he is reading, 
I am confused
And don't know
Where we stand.
Friends or acquaintances.

If he is reading,
You tried to
Manipulate me,
This i cannot forget,
But I can eventually forgive.

If he is reading,
You said sorry
And I believe you
But somehow things
Seem to messed up
For that to matter now.

©Amanda Catherine

Funny (A Poem)

I've always tried

To be something 

I am not. 

Like it was bad 

To be me

For some 

unknown reason. 

Lost, 

That's what I felt. 

Lost because 

No one really 

Knew me. 

Just the parts

I wanted them 

To see. 

Your so funny,

That's what they say. 

I try to let

This comment go

So my mind doesn't 

Go astray. 

I'm so funny 

With my 

Stupid remarks. 

So quick witted

Because I have

To be. 

I cannot let them see

The real me. 

Copyright: Amanda Catherine

Open Arms (A Poem)

It's been 28 years
Since I met you.
You welcomed me
Into this world with
Open arms.
Now I must
say goodbye to you
With open arms.

You showed me what
It meant love and
All the different ways
To have fun.
My life is going to
Be so much different
Without you here
With me.

My mind is gone.
I can't stop crying,
I just lie in bed
And imagine
Your image,
Your touch,
Your voice
Your laugh
And all the memories we share.

I want you back with me
But instead I fade
Back into reality of
What will never be. 

 

©️Amanda Catherine