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Thursday, August 30, 2018

Little Scars: Chapter 4: Just A Little More Time


    Becca stands alone, because deep down she really is alone. It felt like everyone was against her. She asks Holly one more time
    "Who was that"? Holly rolls her eyes,
    "You wouldn't like the answer" she mumbles softly. Becca pins her against the wall and starts demanding answers, she had to know where her daughter was going and more importantly who with and... why. Holly starts laughing
    "You really are trying to hide you past aren't you? she says.
Becca steps back and puts her hands to her head in frustration,
    "I am not that person anymore!" She screams.
Silence and stares from everyone fill the air. Becca backs away and turns around and runs out the hotel lobby door. She falls to her knees and starts crying, she can't believe that this is happening all over again. She had run from this life, but it was always one step ahead of her. She has to find Ava, but she was running out of options and time.

    Ava gets out of the car and looks around. Her kidnapper stands next to her.
    "I never wanted to come back here" she says.
    "It was time" he says.
    "By the way my name is Ed" he says.
    "Such a simple name for a man who is claiming to be my worst nightmare" she says as she is smiling and walking away. She knew where she was, but the question that needed to be answered was why? Why after all these years was she brought back to here. The place that defined her in a way she hated. She looks up at the large brick building and sighs as she reads the sign "Belladonna Center for Lost Souls." She looks at her feet and kicks a rock into the building, she is frustrated and her mom is in the back of her mind. Ed starts to approach her as she slowly walk away, avoiding the inevitable was the only thing she could do at this point. Ed follow behind her and says
    "We can do this the hard way or the easy way, either way you will end up behind those walls  again."
    "I am just enjoying my last moments of solitude" she says.
    "Times up" he say as he grabs her and pulls her aggressively into the building. She looks back as the door slams behind her, the last view of sunshine she will get to see in a while.

©Amanda Catherine


Tuesday, July 31, 2018

Pretend (A Poem)

You made me feel bad
For something I
Didn't do.
You act like the victim
But are you really?

You are a manipulator
You can't control yourself
You lied,
Made me believe
You were something special
But you aren't.
I had faith in you,
Faith that you could
Be better than the
Look you put on.
I was wrong.

In a way I'm happy
That we no longer talk.
Happy that you
Go caught.
Happy that you
Have to explain yourself.
Happy that I don't
Have to pretend
Because this is
The end.

©Amanda Catherine


Thursday, July 19, 2018

Time (A Poem)

Tick, tick, tick,
Time keeps going.
Pacing back and forth
Nervous racing.
Nothing would make him
More happy than
For time to stop.

This moment is more
Than he can take.
Reality hit him hard
And consequences
Are soon to come.
No one expected
This to happen.

All of the sudden
His life turned dark.
He lost all
he had ever
Known to some
Stupid mistake.
He can't take
It back now.
His only love
Was gone.

©Amanda Catherine



Monday, July 16, 2018

29 Things About Me For My 29th Birthday.

1. My favorite movie is Zoolander.
2. I love Mexican food
3. I can play the guitar.
4. I've been writing since I was 13.
5. I'm a colorado native.
6. My favorite animal is a flamingo.
7. I live off coffee.
8. I love to cosplay.
9. I've been suspended from high school.
10. One of my poems has been published.
11. I barely graduated high school.
12. I'm afraid of heights.
13. I danced on a team for 14 years.
14. The only thing I can draw is a flower.
15. I am an only child.
16. My most traveled place is Las Vegas.
17. I hate summer with a passion.
18. I love snow!
19. I've never been skiing.
20. My eyes are seafoam green.
21. I've been drunk.
22. I can't parallel park to save my life.
23. I am a certified phlebotomist.
24. I had braces for 5 years.
25. I am an insomniac.
26. I am very intoverted.
27. I pick at my cuticles when I'm nervous.
28. I want to travel to Maine.
29. I'm afraid of getting old(r).

Tuesday, July 10, 2018

Rewind (A Poem)

I lay awake,
Thinking of what
To write.
You cross my mind,
Last night
I dreamt of you.
You kissed my forehead
Made me feel
Like everything
Was ok...
Is ok.

Life wasn't terrifying
It was a beautiful
Piece of mystery.
No reason to runaway,
Every reason to hit rewind.

©Amanda Catherine



Thursday, June 21, 2018

If He Is Reading ( A Poem)

I he is reading,
I want things to
Go back to the
Way they were.

If he is reading,
You messed up,
But I know I
messed up to.

If he is reading, 
I am confused
And don't know
Where we stand.
Friends or acquaintances.

If he is reading,
You tried to
Manipulate me,
This i cannot forget,
But I can eventually forgive.

If he is reading,
You said sorry
And I believe you
But somehow things
Seem to messed up
For that to matter now.

©Amanda Catherine

Tuesday, February 20, 2018

Funny (A Poem)

I've always tried
To be something 
I am not. 
Like it was bad 
To be me
For some 
unknown reason. 

Lost, 
That's what I felt. 
Lost because 
No one really 
Knew me. 
Just the parts
I wanted them 
To see. 

Your so funny,
That's what they say. 
I try to let
This comment go
So my mind doesn't 
Go astray. 

I'm so funny 
With my 
Stupid remarks. 
So quick witted
Because I have
To be. 
I cannot let them see
The real me. 

Copyright: Amanda Catherine