Ambitions (A Poem)

I am 

not smart,

or am I?

I was always 

told I 

would never

 amount to anything.

Why do you 

even try? 

It won't help,

they always say.

In the back 

of my mind,

I know I

will amount to more.

All they see

is a girl 

who is lost,

and looking

for meaning,  

But I can 

assure you

I'm only

getting started,

you just wait

and see.

There is

so much more

to me.

©Amanda Catherine

Insomniac (A Poem)

Night time,

the best time of day. 

My pen starts 

to flow 

and my thoughts 

grow faster. 

Nothing can hold 

me back.

I am an insomniac. 

While everyone

is sleeping

my thoughts

grow alive. 

Mermaids 

become friends

and friends 

become pirates. 

The world is mine,

I am an insomniac. 

I can be

anything I 

set my pen to. 

My stories are

limitless. 

Nothing can 

stop me now,

I am an insomniac. 

©Amanda Catherine

Smile (A Poem)

Staring at you

across the bar.

You mess with 

your drink.

You check the time,

tapping the bar

impatiently.

You look behind you.

The one you

are looking for 

is nowhere 

to be found.

Your eyes pass
over me.
You do a double take,
 look at me
 and smile.

I pretend to not notice

as I smile back.

My hand pushes

my hair behind my ear

as I giggle

and look back up at you.

©Amanda Catherine

Masterpiece (A Poem)

I'm in the mood 

to write a masterpiece.

To bad it's going

to be about you. 

What can I say?

You make me feel 

less of a person.

Maybe because 

I am less than you. 

What can I say? 

You are smarter,

some say prettier. 

Like that matters. 

You can read a book.

I can make a masterpiece. 

To bad this piece

is about you. 

You have all the 

experience that life

has to offer.

I have all my

emotions inside

that make me 

think different than you.

You can solve a

math equation. 

Well,

Me - You = Happy

Happy,

I guess you are happy. 

This masterpiece

is about you. 

©Amanda Catherine

Always Love Life (A Poem)

Appreciation

Lust

Wanderer

Adoration

Yearn

Sacred

Lovely

Outrageous

Virtuous

Enlightenment

Lively

Interesting

Fantastic

Enjoyment

©Amanda Catherine

Where Friendship Goes Wrong: A True Story: Scary Stalker!

Finally home from her mini vacation Anna finds herself unable to text Remy, it was to good to be true that everything happened the way it did. It wasn't to long of her being home that Jenny texted her asking her if she wanted to hang out. Anna was feeling invincible so she agrees to go. As she biking towards Jenny's house Anna notices someone following her. She turns down different blocks real fast to turn this guy around and it worked, but Anna didn't think to hide her bike once so got to Jenny's. Once Jenny and Anna got all of their stuff ready to go to Circuit City they step outside and there is the truck that was following Anna earlier. 

Anna looks at Jenny and pulls her arm, explaining what happened to her Jenny starts to get mad at the situation and starts yelling at the guy. "Back off, we don't want you around us!" and "Get the fu*k away you perv." are the only things coming out of Jenny's mouth. Anna wanted to have the guts to start yelling at the guy, but instead she pulls out her phone and had 911 dialed into her phone ready incase stuff decided to go down. The truck starts to leave but the guy inside stared at them as he drove past. Jenny says "I knew I would scare them off." Anna with her hands shaking says "I don't know if what you did was good or not." "Just get on your bike so we can go" Jenny says. While Anna gets on her bike she is trying to remember everything about the guy, Facial features, hair color, color of the truck and the make and model of the truck. "We'll be fine, lets go!" Jenny yells. Sighing Anna starts to follow Jenny up the block. As they pedal everything seemed fine, they even made it to the store. As Jenny and Anna wander around the store Anna asks Jenny of she thinks they should call the cops about what happened. Jenny says no and told Anna to leave it alone, the guy won't be coming back. 

As Anna and Jenny leave the store, Anna starts to look around, she doesn't trust anything or anyone right now. She gets to guts to leave and everything was going fine until they entered the neighborhood again. It wan't long until the weird stalker was back. Anna on her bike a few feet behind Jenny yells "we have company!" "Lets loose him!!" Jenny screams back. "Meet at Ashley's?" Anna yells. "Yeah" As they split up they turn in two different directions at the end of the block. Knowing this neighborhood like to back of her hand Anna starts weaving down and around all the streets. For whatever reason this stalker seems really obsessed with her, he hasn't gone after Jenny once. "Maybe it;s because Jenny is obviously the crazy one", Anna thinks to herself. 

It feels like it has been forever and this guy won't leave her alone. Anna pulls out her phone and calls Jenny still trying to loose the guy. Anna just wants to know if she is at Ashley's. Once Anna finds out that Jenny is at Ashley's she has her open the side gate of Ashley's house so that Anna could bike directly into the backyard, she didn't want this guy to see her at all when she made her way to safety. Anna turns the corner and is on Ashley's street. Anna pedals so fast hoping the guy won't see her. As soon as she pulls into the backyard Anna hops off her bike and lets it crash into a bush and runs over to help Jenny quickly close the gate.

They get the gate closed and each of them take a fence hole to look through to see if the guy is near. Jenny keeps trying to talk to Anna but Anna keeps shhhing her. "I hear something" Anna says. The truck stops in the middle of the block and the guy gets out and starts to look around. He scratches his head baffled as the where Anna went. "I think we are almost safe" Anna whispers. "At least until we leave" she continues. They both run inside and Anna calls her mom to have her come get her but there is no answer, the same happenes for Jenny. Ashley walks downstairs and into the kitchen babbling off something stupid when she opens the blinds. Anna and Jenny fall the floor hiding. Jenny asks Ashley if she can see anything and she says "No their is just some weird blue truck outside. "Close the blinds!" Anna and Ashley yell! "God whatever" Ashley says as she closes the blinds. As Anna and Jenny get up off the floor Ashley asks what the big deal is. Apparently Jenny hadn't explained anything to Ashley when she got there. It was when Anna entered the situation that things started to turn serious.

"I'm calling the cops!" Anna yells. "I'm so sick of this" she continues. Jenny tackles Anna to the floor because she didn't want the cops involved. "I don't feel safe at all!" Anna says starting the loose her patience. After some bickering back and forth no one ends up calling the cops. A few hours and episodes of Spongebob pass and Jenny looses her patience and goes outside to face the guy and he was no where to be found. "I;m going home." Jenny says and she grabs all of her stuff. Anna is still very reluctant to even step outside says "Nah, I'm good, I'll continue the cartoon watching fest we have started.  Ashley yells "well I am leaving with her then, so just text me when you are home!" As Anna's eyes refocus on the TV she starts to something, it was Lincoln who lathered himself in cologne. Anna double looks behind her shoulder and proceeds to ignore him. He walks up sits across from her and steals the remote from her as he sits down. "Ug, what?" Anna mumbles. "Oh nothing, just heard you voice after I woke up from a nap." he says. "So you decided to come bother me?" Anna responds back. I'm a little flustered so leaving me alone would be fantastic" she continues. "So I see you met my friend." Lincoln says. Anna looks at him dead in the eye and says What!!!?" "Oh yeah I told him to follow you around to freak you out a little bit, figured it would bring you here eventually." As Anna tried to compose her words she stares at him with the face of confusion and is even more terrified.

To be continued...
©Amanda Catherine

27 Facts About Me For My 27th Birthday!

1, I was named after a Barry Manilow song.

2. I am an only child.

3. I barely graduated High School.

4. I've never left the US. 

5. I am a Phlebotomist (and I am a real good one.)

6. I've worked in Retail for 9 years. 

7. My eyes change color in the sunlight. There natural color is green.

8. My hair was black when I was born, then all fell out and turned blond.

9. I can cook well. 

10. I love to make banana bread. 

11. I am obsessed with conspiracy theories. (I love seeing what people can come up with.) 

12. My favorite movie is Zoolander.

13. I've been to Vegas over 10 times. 

14. I love The Legend of Zelda games. 

15. I can write a poem in 10 minutes, if not less. It's a weird gift. 

16. I love all different types of music.

17. My favorite band growing up was Good Charlotte.

18. I ran from the cops in High School.

19. I've been suspended in High School and College.

20. My lucky number is 20.

21. I've never been drunk or high.

22. I've lived out of state for a few months tagging bears. 

23. I was a College Dance team.

24. I'm really good at Archery and have been doing in since I was 9.

25. I'm an insomniac. 

26. I've had 5 surgeries.

27. I stutter when I am nervous. 

Amanda Catherine

I write for life (A Poem/ Blurb)

I write for life

I write for love.

I write to see the world from up above.

My life is a story waiting to written 

There is so much to be said,

so much between the lines.

Will you take this ride with me

and explore my life as it is meant to be.

©Amanda Catherine

                                   

Forgotten (A Poem)

You turn your back and

walk away,

knowing you'll never

be remembered,

Only forgotten.

Forgotten like those moments

you had together.

They all become a

distant memory of

what you thought

you had.

Hoping for things

to be different

you change yourself

to a person

you never wanted to be.

Wanting to fit in

but fearing

to stand out.

You walk alone

with your shadow

upon this dark night

until you are once again

forgotten.

©Amanda Catherine

The Girl Of Mystery (A Poem)

I look at you,

you look at me. 

I had a feeling 

it was meant to be. 

You walk my way

you make me blush.

Could this be lust?

You come closer

and walk right past.

You were looking

at the girl of my past.

The girl who

dreams of lust,

the girl of which 

loving herself 

wasn't a must. 

I look behind me

as you leave 

with the girl of mystery. 

©Amanda Catherine

Fading Beauty (A Poem)

The best is yet to come my dear.

Don't let life be a shove,

Surround yourself with the beauty

of the world.

Let your happiness unfold,

much like the hope that is within you.

It grows stronger with

each new day and

must never fade away.

©Amanda Catherine

Lingering Love (A Poem)

Love like a summers day

Could never be washed away.

My thoughts of you still linger

With every touch

Oh how I loved you so much.

I wish we could meet again

to wipe away our fears and

let love take control

of our fears.

©Amanda Catherine

Sparks Fly (A Poem)

Day turns into night
Sparks begin to fly.
Time to release
All my emotions
That lie inside.

I put pen to paper
And write whatever
Comes out.
This is my time
To be free,
No more judgements
On me.

©Amanda Catherine

Disappear (A Poem)

She stumbles 

to get her words out.

She had never

done something 

this bad before.

Maybe is was me,

or maybe it was 

this anger building

up inside of me.

She thinks to herself

She takes a step

back and turns to walk away.

No longer wanting

to hurt anyone,

anymore. 

Maybe if I disappear

things can go back

to how they used to be?

As she takes another 

step towards the door

out pops you.

You who I have 

hurt one to many times. 

As I spin around

my hair follows me.

You start to yell my name,

but I disappear

into a thought

you will only have 

once or twice more.

©Amanda Catherine 

Ordinary (A Poem)

I'm not an ordinary girl.

I love to dance,

Just so I can twirl.

I look at life

With an interesting twist.

I always have a

Different way of doing things,

Because of this

I cannot be missed.

When you look at me,

You will wonder why

I am the way I am.

And when I look at you,

I will wonder all of the above.

I don't like how people

Make fun of other people

For being true to themselves.

For heaven's sake

Can't we all be unique

And genuine in every flaw?

My scars have stories,

But not the usual kind.

My scars come from within.

Wanting to fit in,

But always standing out.

Emotional abuse was my childhood.

I fear to say I am broken,

I regret to say, it was my fault.

When you look at me,

You can fear not.

I will not judge you,

Who you are,

Or where you came from.

Your story is your own,

From beginning to end.

©Amanda Catherine 

Writers Block (A Poem)

My mind is all jumbled,

my memories turn into a fog,

should I even write at all?

My thoughts are fading

my ideas are swarming in,

like a pattern that makes no sense.

I start to stumble,

my writings gain no progress.

Time to turn to that alternative and

ignore those thoughts for a while,

then all those pieces will fall together.

©Amanda Catherine