Suffocating ( A Poem)

 It's been a bit... Let's see if I even remember how to write. 

I'm stuck in nighttime

With you,

Myself. 

What am I supposed

To do? 

No distractions,

A reality I

Must face. 

My life feels

All over the place.

I'm lost inside

My head

That sometimes,

Thinks

I'll be 

Better off 

Dead. 

Sometimes

This world is

To much

To take, 

With my emotions 

All over the place. 

My thoughts

Are full

Of despair. 

I feel like 

I'm drowning,

 suffocating. 

I need to 

Come up

For air. 

©️Amanda Catherine

Expectations (A Poem)

Easy,
Breezy,
Beautiful,
Childhood.
Or so they
Call it.
Until you
Realize
You'll never
Live up to
The expectations
People place
On you.
More importantly
On Yourself.

©️ Amanda Catherine

Duck Duck Goose (A Poem)

You put me
On a pedestal
Oh so high.
Till you took
It out from
Under me
And sent me
Sailing down.
You stared
Hitting me,
Now don't
you lie
You changed
In the blink
Of an eye.
My feelings
We're never
Valid, instead
I was the
One to blame
When it all
Went wrong.

I'm sorry I
Wasn't perfect,
I'm sorry I called
You out on all
Your lies.
But more importantly
I'm sorry that
I saw the truth
When it was
To late to apologize. 

To late for me,
To late for you.
I'm done with
This game of
Duck duck goose
Of emotional abuse.

©️ Amanda Catherine

Unfinished (A Poem)

Our friendship
Was like an
Unfinished verse.
It left to much
Unsaid.

©️Amanda Catherine

Dark (A Poem)

Walking with a
Friend in the dark
Is better than
Walking alone
In the light,
Or so they say.
But friends will
Walk away either way.
You can feel them
Next to you,
Or so it seems,
But then
It hits you,
You've been walking
All this way alone,
And they were
Never right
Beside you.

©️ Amanda Catherine

Envelope (A Poem)

Nighttime is the worst.
All the emotions
Come flooding in
And I feel lost.
Like an envelope
With no address.
I try to distract myself,
But all I can think of
Is what would've been.
Or still could be.
With the light of a match,
I still can't see,
But somehow I can
Think of a way to
Put all the blame
On me.

©️ Amanda Catherine

Breathe (A Poem)

You turn
And walk away,
Leaving me
In the pouring
Rain.
You don't
Look back,
It seems it's
Me your trying
To forget.
I hope you
Figure out what
You need, but
Never make
Your way back
To me.
The moment
You left was the
First time in a
While I was able
To breathe
And put myself
Above all else.

©️Amanda Catherine
@greeneyedwallflower