Ambitions (A Poem)

I am 

not smart,

or am I?

I was always 

told I 

would never

 amount to anything.

Why do you 

even try? 

It won't help,

they always say.

In the back 

of my mind,

I know I

will amount to more.

All they see

is a girl 

who is lost,

and looking

for meaning,  

But I can 

assure you

I'm only

getting started,

you just wait

and see.

There is

so much more

to me.

©Amanda Catherine

Insomniac (A Poem)

Night time,

the best time of day. 

My pen starts 

to flow 

and my thoughts 

grow faster. 

Nothing can hold 

me back.

I am an insomniac. 

While everyone

is sleeping

my thoughts

grow alive. 

Mermaids 

become friends

and friends 

become pirates. 

The world is mine,

I am an insomniac. 

I can be

anything I 

set my pen to. 

My stories are

limitless. 

Nothing can 

stop me now,

I am an insomniac. 

©Amanda Catherine

Smile (A Poem)

Staring at you

across the bar.

You mess with 

your drink.

You check the time,

tapping the bar

impatiently.

You look behind you.

The one you

are looking for 

is nowhere 

to be found.

Your eyes pass
over me.
You do a double take,
 look at me
 and smile.

I pretend to not notice

as I smile back.

My hand pushes

my hair behind my ear

as I giggle

and look back up at you.

©Amanda Catherine

Masterpiece (A Poem)

I'm in the mood 

to write a masterpiece.

To bad it's going

to be about you. 

What can I say?

You make me feel 

less of a person.

Maybe because 

I am less than you. 

What can I say? 

You are smarter,

some say prettier. 

Like that matters. 

You can read a book.

I can make a masterpiece. 

To bad this piece

is about you. 

You have all the 

experience that life

has to offer.

I have all my

emotions inside

that make me 

think different than you.

You can solve a

math equation. 

Well,

Me - You = Happy

Happy,

I guess you are happy. 

This masterpiece

is about you. 

©Amanda Catherine

Always Love Life (A Poem)

Appreciation

Lust

Wanderer

Adoration

Yearn

Sacred

Lovely

Outrageous

Virtuous

Enlightenment

Lively

Interesting

Fantastic

Enjoyment

©Amanda Catherine

27 Facts About Me For My 27th Birthday!

1, I was named after a Barry Manilow song.

2. I am an only child.

3. I barely graduated High School.

4. I've never left the US. 

5. I am a Phlebotomist (and I am a real good one.)

6. I've worked in Retail for 9 years. 

7. My eyes change color in the sunlight. There natural color is green.

8. My hair was black when I was born, then all fell out and turned blond.

9. I can cook well. 

10. I love to make banana bread. 

11. I am obsessed with conspiracy theories. (I love seeing what people can come up with.) 

12. My favorite movie is Zoolander.

13. I've been to Vegas over 10 times. 

14. I love The Legend of Zelda games. 

15. I can write a poem in 10 minutes, if not less. It's a weird gift. 

16. I love all different types of music.

17. My favorite band growing up was Good Charlotte.

18. I ran from the cops in High School.

19. I've been suspended in High School and College.

20. My lucky number is 20.

21. I've never been drunk or high.

22. I've lived out of state for a few months tagging bears. 

23. I was a College Dance team.

24. I'm really good at Archery and have been doing in since I was 9.

25. I'm an insomniac. 

26. I've had 5 surgeries.

27. I stutter when I am nervous. 

Amanda Catherine

I write for life (A Poem/ Blurb)

I write for life

I write for love.

I write to see the world from up above.

My life is a story waiting to written 

There is so much to be said,

so much between the lines.

Will you take this ride with me

and explore my life as it is meant to be.

©Amanda Catherine

                                   

Forgotten (A Poem)

You turn your back and

walk away,

knowing you'll never

be remembered,

Only forgotten.

Forgotten like those moments

you had together.

They all become a

distant memory of

what you thought

you had.

Hoping for things

to be different

you change yourself

to a person

you never wanted to be.

Wanting to fit in

but fearing

to stand out.

You walk alone

with your shadow

upon this dark night

until you are once again

forgotten.

©Amanda Catherine

The Girl Of Mystery (A Poem)

I look at you,

you look at me. 

I had a feeling 

it was meant to be. 

You walk my way

you make me blush.

Could this be lust?

You come closer

and walk right past.

You were looking

at the girl of my past.

The girl who

dreams of lust,

the girl of which 

loving herself 

wasn't a must. 

I look behind me

as you leave 

with the girl of mystery. 

©Amanda Catherine

Fading Beauty (A Poem)

The best is yet to come my dear.

Don't let life be a shove,

Surround yourself with the beauty

of the world.

Let your happiness unfold,

much like the hope that is within you.

It grows stronger with

each new day and

must never fade away.

©Amanda Catherine

Lingering Love (A Poem)

Love like a summers day

Could never be washed away.

My thoughts of you still linger

With every touch

Oh how I loved you so much.

I wish we could meet again

to wipe away our fears and

let love take control

of our fears.

©Amanda Catherine

Sparks Fly (A Poem)

Day turns into night
Sparks begin to fly.
Time to release
All my emotions
That lie inside.

I put pen to paper
And write whatever
Comes out.
This is my time
To be free,
No more judgements
On me.

©Amanda Catherine

Disappear (A Poem)

She stumbles 

to get her words out.

She had never

done something 

this bad before.

Maybe is was me,

or maybe it was 

this anger building

up inside of me.

She thinks to herself

She takes a step

back and turns to walk away.

No longer wanting

to hurt anyone,

anymore. 

Maybe if I disappear

things can go back

to how they used to be?

As she takes another 

step towards the door

out pops you.

You who I have 

hurt one to many times. 

As I spin around

my hair follows me.

You start to yell my name,

but I disappear

into a thought

you will only have 

once or twice more.

©Amanda Catherine 

Ordinary (A Poem)

I'm not an ordinary girl.

I love to dance,

Just so I can twirl.

I look at life

With an interesting twist.

I always have a

Different way of doing things,

Because of this

I cannot be missed.

When you look at me,

You will wonder why

I am the way I am.

And when I look at you,

I will wonder all of the above.

I don't like how people

Make fun of other people

For being true to themselves.

For heaven's sake

Can't we all be unique

And genuine in every flaw?

My scars have stories,

But not the usual kind.

My scars come from within.

Wanting to fit in,

But always standing out.

Emotional abuse was my childhood.

I fear to say I am broken,

I regret to say, it was my fault.

When you look at me,

You can fear not.

I will not judge you,

Who you are,

Or where you came from.

Your story is your own,

From beginning to end.

©Amanda Catherine 

Writers Block (A Poem)

My mind is all jumbled,

my memories turn into a fog,

should I even write at all?

My thoughts are fading

my ideas are swarming in,

like a pattern that makes no sense.

I start to stumble,

my writings gain no progress.

Time to turn to that alternative and

ignore those thoughts for a while,

then all those pieces will fall together.

©Amanda Catherine