Strive (A Poem)

The older I get,
The more I see
How things are meant to be.

I am not meant
To get whatever I want.
I am meant
To get what I strive for.

Sure I've pushed on by
And made my own way.
But for me it's never been
My way or the highway.

It's always been a
Game of Duck Duck goose
Where I'll just follow you around
And hope that I don't eventually drown

Drown in the ideas of
What I need to be,
Instead of what I strive to be.
©Amanda Catherine

Abandon (A Poem)

I've been your friend

when you were alone.

It was nice because

I, myself, was also alone.

It was so nice having someone to talk to

with judgement tossed aside.

I really felt I could be the real me,

We were each others best friends.

I never thought that anything could

get in the way of that.

I felt like I was floating on a cloud

of hope that things

would fall into place for you and me.

I tossed all my secrets aside

and let you see how damaged I really am.

You gave me hug with tears in my eyes.

no one has ever treated me like this before.

Everything was perfect,

even if was just for one moment.

I look back on this moment

even to this day.

I wonder what happened.

We were so close for so long

now I feel like we are nothing.

Not friends or even acquaintances.

As I see you and you walk on by

I think to myself,

as I hold my emotions inside.

I'm the girl you decided to abandon.

©Amanda Catherine