After the incident at the sleepover Anna really dis-included herself from a lot her friends activities, she wanted nothing to do with them. She had attempted to talk about it with another one of her childhood friends that went to a different school but she never had the courage. She felt like Lincolns actions were all her fault so she dove into a deep state of depression. Her backpack was covered with suicide poems and her writing went from talking about flowers to death, but no one ever saw her cry for help. She had gotten to good at hiding her pain.
One day Anna was sitting at the park alone contemplating everything that was going on in her life when she got a phone call from Ashley. She ignored the call because she felt like hanging around her was bad news, but Ashley kept calling and calling so she eventually did answer. Anna couldn't help but answer the phone angrily, "What!" she says, Ashley responds back "I just hadn't heard from you in a while and was wondering if you wanted to go out to dinner with my family and I." Anna first thought was, I wonder if Lincoln will be there? It was like Ashley had read her mind as she says "Lincoln won't be coming since he is at football practice." Anna agrees and heads home to get ready to head out to dinner with her family. She found herself really excited about going out, maybe this is just what she needed. She even changed her outfit to something a little bit more classy. Leaving the house in her jeans and favorite purple shirt with a grey pullover, she felt confident and ready to take on the evening. She walks up to Ashley's door as soon as Lincoln gets home, his practice had ended early, That meant he would be coming out to dinner with them. Anna got a huge knot in her stomach, "this can not be happening" she says quietly to herself. Sitting nervously on the sofa tapping her foot waiting for everyone to get ready she was trying to think of a way out of going. She just didn't want to make a big deal about it, she didn't want anyone to know what was going on. After a few more minutes of waiting she ends up going, she was going to try and stay as far away from Lincoln as possible. It was going well, she was able to sit with Ashley in between them the whole way to the restaurant and even at the restaurant. They were squished in the booth, but she didn't care as long as it kept her away from him. Ashley had to go to the bathroom so of course he slid his way over next to her. Anna gives him an evil glare and he just smiles. Their parents were completely oblivious to what was going on, they just kept complaining about the service at the restaurant. At first Lincoln put his hand on her hand that was resting on her lap so no one could see and Anna pushes it away. Ashley comes back and sits on the other side of Lincoln leaving him in the middle. He puts his hand on hers again and she doesn't do anything, maybe if she ignores it he will take it off. To her surprise he moves his hand to her private region and just starts rubbing. Anna tries to ignore it, surprised that no one noticed, but he just kept doing it. Flustered she says "I need to go to the bathroom" and gets up and runs to the bathroom. On the verge of tears she sat in the stall and stayed there until Ashley came in to check on her. She tried to not show that she was crying. She wanted to be strong but it was getting hard.
On the way home from the restaurant all that Anna could think of was the lyrics of that Motion City Soundtrack song again. Even though Lincoln kept touching her she went off into her own little world where everything was OK, where she wasn't afraid of being herself and where everyone accepted her. Best of all in her world there was no Lincoln, but then reality struck when they pulled into the driveway. She got out of the car and just walked home, alone, no goodbye, no thanks for dinner, just straight home. Ashley kept trying to call her but she really didn't want to talk to her.
To be continued... <3
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